I seem to dance from one extreme to the next... is spirit, am I, trying to break my ego? See how much it can handle before it snaps?? Ugggggh. Icky icky yuck feelings are dusted over all the aspects of my perception tonight. I can’t seem to walk away from my creative pursuits yet, I am blinded to the point. They give me a sense of purpose most of the time, but it could/may be false? Fakery? Things are not working like I am told they do. Will. Should.
Why not? I am skipped over on harvest day again and again. How much more do I have to do here - before I am fed and satisfied? Before I can figure it out and smooth out the kinks that keep throwing me off.
I know the answer is Flow.
But my ego is ready to explode!
She’s had enough.
And all I can do is
Keep her dancing.
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Keep her distracted so the I am
Will be able to focus my intent
And find my why.
“Kill me, my faithful friends, for in my slaughter is my life.” Rumi
ReplyDeleteDie to the illusion (our bodies, our projects, our ego identities) and enter into true reality (love).
Randomly reading “The Way of Passion” and it says: “ Transfigure this life into a slaughterhouse of the ego. Burn away the false self and radiate that love, knowledge, bliss, and joy to everyone. When you are, you will never die, because there is only Being.”
ReplyDeleteYeahh. Holy shit. Wow!!